This month I had a few things that I absolutely loved. Most of them where TV shows, some of them were makeup products, and one was that we finally booked our trip to San Francisco and we leave in 9 days! (Not that I haven't had a countdown going or anything...) February was a great month but March is gonna be even better! Also if anyone else watches The People v OJ Simpson let me know what you think because quite honestly its trash but I can't stop watching it...okay now onto some nonsense. Like talking about some of my first loves John Stamos and Leonardo DiCaprio!
Whenever I write out February I spell it out in my head like I was back in the 6th grade. My 6th grade history teacher hated how kids could never spell the month of February so he would always go around the room and ask kids to spell out the month. Kids would start "f..." and he would stop them and say, "Nope you are wrong! Next!" This would go on for three or four kids leaving everyone confused. He finally gave us a hint and he said, "You guys, its CAPITAL F e-b-r-u-a-r-y" and it has been almost 12 years since that one day in history class but yet I always have him in my head saying "Capital F..." whenever I write it out! Once again, I can remember this story yet I can't tell you what we talked about in my British Literature class last week! This month I had a few things that I absolutely loved. Most of them where TV shows, some of them were makeup products, and one was that we finally booked our trip to San Francisco and we leave in 9 days! (Not that I haven't had a countdown going or anything...) February was a great month but March is gonna be even better! Also if anyone else watches The People v OJ Simpson let me know what you think because quite honestly its trash but I can't stop watching it...okay now onto some nonsense. Like talking about some of my first loves John Stamos and Leonardo DiCaprio!
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Lets face it, when it comes to terms of being an actual legitimate adult I'm still considered a fetus. However, I have learned quite a lot since I shot my How To Be An Adult video last year and I figured I should share. It is always after the fact that I think of other things to add. Like the fact that when you lose a checkbook you tear the entire apartment apart trying to find it, get so mad about how nothing is organized, clean the entire place and then end up finding the checkbook in the first place you looked. Yep, living the dream. So here is a quote from the always hysterical Anna Kendrick about being an adult and then my take on the entire thing. I still think its stupid but such is life. I'm not one to believe in resolutions. I never stick to anything anyway so why lie to myself and say that I will. However, I do believe that there are ways to improve myself and the things I choose to create. One of those consists of just being more positive. I am always so quick to tear everything down and make an excuse. However, I am making a promise to myself that I will not continue to make 1,000 excuses for not doing something that I enjoy. My parents upped my YouTube game by an astronomical percent by getting me a beautiful camera to film with. You guys are the best and I only got in about 5 fights with the camera doing this. I decided to make my background something other then my couch and create a video that every teenage and twenty something white girl loves to watch, including myself, haul videos. I did accumulate a lot of nonsense over the last few weeks so why not just make a video about it. So here we go...an entire video of me talking about things that I own. Not as shallow as it sounds. Trust me. Judging by the title I am sure you can tell that 2015 and I were not the best of friends. In fact we really were not friends at all. This year is not one that I would like to highlight in the years to come. It is going to be the year that I say, "2015, yeah we don't need to talk about that!" and then most likely take a nice long sip of a strong drink. Hey, we all couldn't have the same year Amy Shumer had. That wouldn't have been fair to her! I spent a majority of the year sitting around thinking about what I was going to do with the rest of my life. People who know me well know that my last internship was anything but a "calling" to the industry. I spent a majority of this year with a bad taste in my mouth about the industry and internships in general. It does not matter how many resumes you send out or how many professional emails you think you constructed perfectly, if you don't know someone its not getting you very far. Networking is a word I have heard since high school and it only took me a solid eight years to realize that it is the most useful tool. So kids, network. Also, don't be afraid to go to someone and tell them that you have no idea what you are going to do because they may be the one who gives you a lead that opens a door you never thought you would open. 2015 showed me how evil life can be. You can be perfectly fine on day and the next your entire world can be turned upside down. This year I had to watch one of my favorite people on the planet go through something that no one in their life should have to go through. She fought so hard and I will always be so proud of her for that. There is not a day that goes by where I don't think about her and hear her voice saying all the silly things she used to say to me. Everyone has their days with it and for a while I had a lot of really bad ones but I know that is not what she would want. Linny, thanks for always believing in "Lauren Carr the Movie Star". They better have some good 'snicky snacks' up there for you! This year showed me that during the darkest times and the some of the darkest days of your life the people who show up are the ones that have always been there. I am very lucky to have grown up with a group of friends that I know I can call and they will be there. They always show up and I will always show up for them. I always say this to Kendall, but it applies to all of them. "You're the best, never change!" I always knew my mother was a strong woman, but man, I had no idea just how strong she actually is. This year was not easy on anyone and this woman still managed to take on everyone while still finding time to call me and laugh about something stupid. If anyone needs a wedding date in the upcoming year, please call my mother. She knows all the words to "You Shook Me All Night Long," knows all of the line dances, and will lose count of how many white wines she has had. Also if you have an extra ticket to any TV show take her. She will get you on TV looking like a crazy person. I've had the privilege of witnessing both of these events this year and they are my favorite memories. Ma, you are a gem and I love ya. This year I read Amy Poehler's book, which was a tad disappointing but that is neither here nor there right now. In one chapter of the book she writes about her new boyfriend and I found a line that was buried throughout all the other text that really stuck out to me. She wrote, "I have a boyfriend who knows how to settle me. He puts his hand on my chest and tells me boring stories." I couldn't help but laugh when I read that because just like Amy I am lucky enough to have that too. Rocco, you are the absolute joy of my life and the only one who can "settle" me. I had no idea that the funny kid I started dating last year would turn into the best partner and friend a girl could ever ask for. Thank you for making me laugh every day and being the absolute best part of my day. I wouldn't want to go through life with anyone else. Here is to a lot of laughter, adventures, and health in the New Year. I could not be more ready for a fresh start. Now to sign off in the way I wrote all of my emails to prospective companies that never acknowledged me. Well, besides one ;)
All the best, Lauren I'm two weeks away from starting my senior year of college and it makes me laugh about how my life has been since first moving in freshmen year. I will never forget my very first day of college because I was well over two hours late for move in because of traffic, cried like a baby saying goodbye to my mother and got exposed to the life that is a disgusting sports house that charges you $5 a cup for shit beer. Ah, memories.
If someone had asked me three years ago how I think my life would be entering senior year I would probably tell them an extremely mapped out plan. After all I was a naive 18 year old who thought she knew everything and could also do everything according to plan. The plan would probably consist of living with friends in an off campus apartment, having a great internship and having a strong grip on what my life will look like as soon as that diploma is in my hand. Yeah, none of that happened. Instead I live happily with my boyfriend (I would have never imagined that) in a very nice grown up apartment, I have no internship or any prospect of one at the moment and if you were to ask me were I hope to be after graduation I will tell you, "Hopefully I'm not still waitressing." When I entered college I thought everyone had their shit together. Everyone is working toward the life they want for themselves and toward a job they will absolutely love. What I have come to find is that a majority of people simply just want a job, any job, that will pay their rent and pay off their loans. Being happy about being there isn't really a factor. They are just hungry for anything that will give them a chance and pay them. I have slowly accepted the fact that I have become one of those people. I thought I knew what I really wanted when I entered college. The funny thing they don't really tell you about the four years of being there is that everything you thought you wanted isn't what you wanted at all. Instead, you are offered opportunities that you never thought you would get, you encounter people who challenge you, surprise you and some even change your life. You also ask yourself if you are doing everything correctly about five times a day. What a weird place to be. The amount of self doubt that happens on a daily basis is actually unreal. My doubt about the future after the bubble of college is over started at the beginning of last year. I've just been hanging out in limbo trying to figure things out. I took a job that I thought would give me some direction and it instead made me hate the industry all together. It was extremely disappointing finding out that the thing I had an interest in isn't what I thought it really was. Thats life for you. I kept telling myself that I have another year to just figure it out. Well guess what that year is over and now it's crunch time. Where in the hell am I supposed to go? The amount of direction I have is zero. I know that I am not the only one who feels this way, but that fact is not comforting to me at all. My biggest fear is that everyone is going to have everything figured out and I'll still be showing up everyday for my 4pm-10:30 pm waitress shift. And I'll show up everyday saying, "I have a degree ya know!" when a customer barks at me for more bread. However, I've decided to stop having a negative connotation with having no direction going into my last year of college. Anything can happen and so many things can change in a short amount of time. If I have learned anything about the past year it is that 12 months can completely change your life. So here is a quote that will hopefully help anyone else feeling a little lost about their life. When I'm not worrying about not having a job out of college I like to look up fun sayings. Hey, everyone has their thing! |
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